I cry out to you, Lord of all, and ask for direction in my life. G-d I don’t know. I don’t have any idea. It seems like we’re not compatible in this Lord. it’s more important to him than me. it’s like we have the same end in mind but it’s the getting there that’s at cross points. oh Jesus please help me. i don’t even know what…to think, to do, to say. Lord G-d!! i ask for the words! for direction! if it be Your will oh Jesus please help me. oh G-d. what do i do?

((these prayers, cries to G-d for help and direction, they aren’t written to be showy or written for anyone’s benefit other than mine. i’m not trying to convert/evangelize, this is just somewhere that i occasionally bare my heart. cause it’s freeing to be anonymous. but questions, comments. whatever. they’re welcome, unless derogatorily stated and peppered with curse words.))

UPDATE:: about an ex-boyfriend, who was a then-boyfriend. turned out to be a jerk [manipulative, controlling to some degree]. but yeah, much better without him!